Today I'm 40, Iza.

It's wild to think about the last 10 years.

The last decade has been spent growing a family and a business.

I'd be lying if I said it was easy.

It wasn't.

There was a lot of hustle.

Nights where I wondered whether I was crazy for doing this.

Times where I was disappointed or wanted to quit.

Guilt because maybe I wasn't spending enough time with the kids or wasn't fully present enough.

But here we are...and my life is nothing like I thought it would be.

We live in a beautiful home.

I have 3 incredible boys.

Clients I absolutely love (and some who have been with me for years).

I am so grateful I could explode.

And also -- there's a part of me that's wondering what's next.

That finds herself pulling back a little and wanting a quieter life.

As I go into this next decade, I'm not motivated by making more money.

I'm motivated by having more peace.

By settling into the life I've created and giving myself permission to enjoy it.

By surrendering to God and trusting that His plans are always best (something I've been reminded of frequently over this last decade).

Today is a celebration. Yes, of turning 40...but also celebrating the last 10 years of business.

A business that I started so I could make some money on the side and be home with my six month old -- but has morphed into something much bigger than I could have imagined.

I'm also celebrating not having all the answers.

That might sound like a weird thing to say...but I've spent so much of my life searching for certainty.

While there are glimpses of it along the way, I've learned that certainty comes after you let go and trust that things are unfolding exactly as they're meant to.

So this is me trusting. Trusting in what's ahead for the next decade. And thanking the Lord for every bit of it.

Michelle